Twist of the Truth
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ~ Philippians 4:8
I have identified a thought in my life that paralyzes me, keeps me from talking to God, keeps me fearfully “working” toward…. toward….what?
I push myself to the limits, trying to stay above water.
Swirling storm of productivity.
I finally wrote out that thought the other day: “I must be perfect – operating at peak efficiency and performance – otherwise I’m a failure.”
Yes, that makes sense, doesn’t it? I want to be excellent. I can be. I’ve tasted it.
Wow, but wait.
What is the goal?
My thought, the thought I have every day. It drives me.
That thought is… a lie.
A twist of the truth, twisted excellence into perfectionism – the endless black abyss of “almost there” emptiness.
As I pondered this the other day, I found myself furiously writing and experiencing the presence and peace of God. He was teaching me a new mantra, Truth to speak over myself when I feel paralyzed by this fear, this lie. I write it so that I may go to it and speak it out over myself, daily.
If you deal with this same lie, this same paralysis of fear, I encourage you to speak it out over yourself as well.
I’m still in the game.
I’m allowed to take two seconds right now in the Spirit and enter His presence and rest. I am allowed to stay in a peaceful state of mind, with no worry or fear, even though I haven’t done things perfectly.
My imperfection and weakness is my access point to enter His presence. It is what makes others relate to me. It can repeatedly be transformed into peace.
It is critically important that I have slow, unproductive times and days. Fear is a force coming against me because God has a high calling for me.
What would fill me up right now? What do I want to do?
There is nothing to fear. Perfection is NOT the goal. Intimacy is.
I can do nothing in my own strength.
This is easy! Fun!
I’m right on track!
I can’t wait to do this!
It’s not about me!
Of course I will feel inadequate!
He is setting me up to recognize Him!
I can’t take credit!
Feeling weak? Perfect! I’m surrendered.
I break any agreements I’ve made, known or unknown, with the spirit of fear.
The fact that I am feeling fear does NOT mean that I have failed. It means I’m being attacked because I am a threat to the enemy.
This is an opportunity to cling to God, to stop, and seek his help to resolve the situation, to sweep my fear under His wings, to take care of me, to show me His way, His plan.
Walking in freedom takes practice. Remember that this is a fight. We must declare truth over ourselves and surround ourselves with it.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9